studio ghibli x romantic (or something of the sort) relationships
A good designer asks questions. An excellent designer asks questions while presenting solutions.
So, i guess I could have had a fighting chance for a scholarship but I didn’t try because I always think that I’m not up to par nor does my art have a fighting chance against fellow student. i’m good but not great especially against others in my graduating class.
Am i in a better spot than this year’s graduating class? Yes. Am I a good artist? Sure. Am I better than other artists in my graduating class? like one or two of them.
I still have a long way to go in my art to improve and so much to learn but to actually even have the possibility to get a scholarship that could help me when I’m going up against better ones than me what fighting chance do I have? I am humble but it is also pretty much putting myself down and belittling my skills. Like I said I know I’m good but I still have a very long way to go before I’m a truly great artist.
I should have probably asked my professor to look over my stuff but i always feel inadequate and I didn’t want to be took that I needed more art work and that I didn’t have enough to supplement for the stuff and add to stress levels. I hate being a disappointment and knowing more than well enough that I’m not good enough.
Most days I hate myself anyways, I don’t need to know or more reinforcement from people who are judging my artwork that I’m not ready nor am I skilled enough to leave school or even to compete to get a job in the game design industry.
I hate that I have to fight nearly every day just to get out of bed or to keep working on my art work or to even get to where I am in my skills and still know I’m not good enough. I’m just tired of having to struggle with day to day life in my house. I really just want to go back to bed and not leave until the semester is over. I would also like to just stay in school for one more year instead of graduating next year just to have more time to improve my skills and have better work before I leave. I think I might go talk to one of the counselors to see if I could do that.
I need more time to master this sort of stuff with my professors than trying to get it right myself.
A serious girl, when she finds someone who calms her spirit and quiets her busy thoughts, will love you so fiercely, it will defy even her own logic and reasoning.
The saddest thing about betrayal is that it never comes from your enemies.